Really, you wont be that missed.
Don’t get me wrong, 2011 was a year that gave me my second beautiful blessing with miss Gianna, and the fact that I had this wonderful sweet baby in my life for 9 whole months of the year is just plain awesome.
However, I really struggled. It was a year full of uncertainty and change, going from a family of three to four, struggling through post-partum depression and in the midst of it trying to be the best mother I could be to my two girls. When all you can focus on when you wake up is how you could possibly make it through the entire day it doesn’t leave much room to nurture your marriage, take time out for yourself, take pride in your home. It was a year filled with too many unrealistic expectations of myself, too many “extras” I took on when I was already struggling with the day to day. It was a year filled with a countless number of to-do lists with hardly anything ever being checked off. A year filled with tragedy of close friends, worry about the health of both a parent and myself, one with far too much doubt. A year filled with challenges in my marriage and a lot of turning to prayer for answers because I just could not make sense of things myself.
I cant put my finger on exactly what made is so difficult, and I don’t blame the hormones/PPD completely, but everything combined just made for a very overwhelmed me.
So, I am excited about 2012. Excited to take things one day at a time and on those challenging ones be ok with it being one minute at a time. I am excited to watch my girls grow, my marriage get stronger, my faith deeper, my home a little cleaner, my waist smaller and my debt disappear.